Sometimes, when I’m really bored, I go back to my old blogs and read them from the start. They, those melancholic depressing sadistic entries, bring me back to reality at times. I was happy then, but I’m way happier now. I was happy then only because I had to be, to keep going, to get out of the sad shell I was cooped up in. In secondary school, I was happy because I had a few good friends to last me through the four years. Some who lingered from the start till the end, some left while I was finding myself still, some came to pick my pieces up, but whatever it is, thank God for them, else, nanhua would have been a load of bullshit.
Yet, I’m happier now. A lot happier, in fact. Because now, I not only have those who lasted and stayed from secondary school, I also have many new ones from poly, and a special someone who’s taken my heart.
A imissyou list, since I haven’t made one in ages. Nobody really knows about this blog, those who are going to be in the list, but it’s okay, I just need to get the list done.
(In no order of importance)
1. Mel, Cindy, Spencer- Once upon a time, the four of us would have been a very weird combination. Esp, me mel spens. I can still rmbr mel constantly telling me how weird it was. I had a blast with you guys, mel and cindy during lit and history classes, and mel and spens during english supplementary, and cindy and spens during our hectic-crazy working holidays, handling three jobs at a go. Those times, they always bring a smile to my face. But it’s sad how now we’re not talking much at all. In fact, I can’t remember the last time I had a decent conversation with mel, cindy or spens. People move on, I do too, but those memories stay.
2. Shurun – Sigh my dearest dearest dearest same frequency girlfriend. All the times when chianlim pissed you off, all the times when you sat just diagonally behind me, all the times we’d studied at the lift lobby, all the abbrievations I came up with so you could rmbr the history rubbish, all the after school times at causeway pt, eating the desserts, getting scammed to take 963 all the way with you, all the cooking in your house, the soup sessions, the overnight studying stayovers at your place and mine, our sizzler outings even when I was in first year still, our birthday celebrations for each other, the times you scolded me for stupid things I’d done, the times you thought I was still stupid and immature and irritating but I grew to be otherwise, all the times when nobody understood you, I did. That particular day you texted me about missing me cos nobody understood what you were saying touched me to the core. I miss the shit out of those good ol’ days.
3. One piece [shurun/sam/jennie] – How we got together, and how we allowed a twist of events and lies to separate us. How fun it was during the sec1 and 2 dance days, then suddenly sec3 and 4 we were all different people again. How hard it was for all of us to return to that blog to read all our quarrels and relive those memories. They tore us apart, but you know, they’d really made us stronger today. I’m thankful I’ve met you girls.
4. Mak Junling – We were on the same side of the boat, and we still are. Those people who doubted you, let them go, cos you know you deserve better than that. Remember those times Ms Chua made me sit alone at the back during amath lessons cos we were just busy talking away? And our productive chem lessons? Our mac days, that day we went cycling around cck, our badminton sat nights, the first suki sushi experience with you and xinhao, and everthing else. They’re here to stay, just like I am. Don’t keep so much to yourself, it isnt healthy. I love you, always will.
5. Lau Puiyin – Wah you bitch. Hahaha everytime I talk about you I tend to type a HAHAHAHA. I think what you went through made you a stronger person today but really ah, you damn pessimistic about the future lah. Can’t stand it. I talk to you a lot, cos I know you understand all that’s happening. I know you won’t mince your words about anything, and that’s what I love about you. Cos I get to hear the truths, and not what I wanna hear. I love you girl, for everything youve done (:
I’m going to skip a few others tonight, and save them for some other time. But before I go, one last person..
6. lancie boy – iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
have you any idea how much I love you? Yes you do, and I know you feel the same (: To be the first you think of each morning and the last you see each night. To be there for you, first or last, to be there for you baby (you said this, rmbr?) To love you, for the better or the worse, to see us through, the good and the bad. To hold on still, despite all the currents against us, and to never let go,
cos there’ll never be anyone like you.
my baby(:
