I hate this after-exams feeling. All of a sudden, there’s nothing to study. Stayed up the whole of last night and I tell you, I had the most awful time this morning taking the marketing paper. I was practically falling asleep at every single question. Had the points, but no elaboration, meaning ZILCH ): Heartbreaking, after all that studying. Enough about exams.
PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSP
Will any kind soul get me one so I can start feeling alive?
Puiyin Xiaoyan Cat and Huiting are probably the nicest people around. They actually accompanied all the way to Acer after the paper today and I didnt even join them for lunch! Wahlau, touched (:
Thank God for lpy the past week, for studying with me and making sure I study and vice versa, and oh, having orange muffins and sakae =D I foresee us doing the same during commontests/exams, provided I don’t have to retake any module =X
Honestly, I kinda hate the holidays.
I see.. CAPS, FCC and well, nothing else. Oh, trainings, maybe?
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Let’s hope there’ll be some tennis, swimming, sakae-ing, WORKING. py, I can teach you how to swim. I INSIST.
I spent a long time in the shower tonight – deciding if I should cut my hair, again. Hahaha.
So I did! Trimmed my fringe! Made me feel a hell lot happier, even though nobody probably can tell. It’s that kinda IJUSTWANNACUTMYHAIR urge but it ends up looking the same as before. Feel like snipping the whole chunk off cos it’s been growing pretty fast. It’s like so dry and brittle and my hair loss is getting more severe each day. I lose CLUMPS, I swear, from just a single shower. Wtf. ARGH. Don’t wanna end up looking like some balding bitch.
You know, it hit me suddenly. Last week, one of the days we were studying together, py and I kinda talked. About everything. And it’s amazing how last time we kinda hated each other’s guts and today I’m just so able to tell her so much cos she knows how it feels. Like, to put in everything, or too much, only to realise sometimes things dont go the way you want them to. You’ve gotta take a step back and let go of the rein, maybe that way we’ll all start to feel better. So I decided to do that, and yes I’m feeling better in a way, but it takes time if this were to be a long term thing. I’ve been so worried that I wont be needed anymore after the past week, but py made me realise that there was nothing I could do even if that were to be the truth. Girls, generally, especially those like me, tend to hold on too tight. Lucky for me, I’ve learnt to loosen the noose, so I hope that helps. Gosh, a load of bull just to make this entry look longerrrrr.
One last, and the most important being,
You’re perfect the way you are. Don’t say you haven’t been a good bf, cos I haven’t been good to you as well.
We learn as we grow, and I’m learning how to love you better each day. So before I reach the ultimate, give me time and be patient. I love you.
