UNGLAM AT HER BEST

Only managed to do 2 chapters of law today. Too slow too slow. Much was spent talking with stupid lau. Like, talk bout candles and flowers. Hahahah. Then at night tried to study with jh but we ended up talking bout stuff too. Heheh. Felt gooood though.

zzzzzzzzz i need to gym. damn sian.

full day of studying tmrw.

YAAAAAAAAAY.

ifeeldamnsiancan.

SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN TO THE MAX.

Team = Family, at least in my context.
At least, once upon a time, I knew of the team to be a family. What’s with it now I’ve no idea, or perhaps it’s just me who feels this way. I may not have any rights, or be in any position to say all of what I’m going to say (prolly nothing much), but I still want to say it, Goddamn it, it’s my blog.

Hello, turning up for only training camps does not necessarily make you a sprinter okay. You don’t just come, bond with all of us for 3 days, and go back to living in your own world, yet at the same time pretending to be part of us just for the status. You row not for the COOLNESS of the sport, but because you LOVE IT. You don’t even have to be awesome at it, as long as you have the passion and willingness to learn and be part of a team, THE team. But oh wait, now, what team? Scattered sand, that’s what we all are. Where once upon a time we strove together to win for THE TEAM, now we win for ourselves. Yeah, true, it’s our own glory, but nevertheless, think back and see what kinda mindset has evolved from the past. Look at how hard our seniors worked, look at where they stand, look at how we still remember them even after so long. Because THEY DESERVE the respect, the glory. Honestly, sometimes I turn up for sunday trainings, expecting like 2434235 pple, but deep down knowing that prolly only 8 will come. Then it becomes really sad, like a small miserable team. Not to say a small team isnt good, but to know that this small team is not really IT hurts, cos you know there’re still many who are part of it that are not there. Like, empty spaces. It’s no longer just about attendance. It’s about how you feel towards this team. If you even regard this as a team. I seriously am doubting my own feelings now. I think I’m only rowing cos I really enjoy it, love the sport, but that’s about it. I no longer feel the bond. Cliques? Childish. We’re a whole team.
are we anymore?
Some people don’t come back anymore. Now I’m starting to see why.
And it’s like a gradual thing. After last year, we just sort of fell apart. Best thing, we LET it happen right in front of our eyes. I can only see some of us still hanging on, to what, I don’t know, but let’s hope 2008 will be a better year for all of us.
and one more thing, we damn well have no discipline. AT ALL.

(and, let’s hope more girls can be recruited for sprinting this yr =X)

And, all of the above are MY VIEWS, some of which may even be SHOOTING me. You don’t have to agree with them, but please at least respect k.

Okay, im going to publish this post now………..
scaryshit but who cares.

I did my best! And at least I did not allow something to weigh on my conscience. Karma does exist. It’ll be good luck for me the next time round (:
22km…… OVER!!!!
like a tattoo. says (10:16 PM):
im still quite stunned. 22k leh wahpiang.

yay, jess’s comment made me feel like some pro shit! (okay at this point, im going to ignore the SENIOR category =X LOL)

Anyways, congrats to all who competed, be it having won or not!

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You’re screwing with my mind, that’s what you’re doing. But my heart stays firm.
For now, I’m too tired to give a flying shit about you, in that aspect.
Cos we’re still friends afterall. And that makes things sad.
I’m probably imagining the whole shit.

im so fecking sleepy.

my arms and shoulders are still aching, oh no ):

frrrrrrrrrck.

OH AND I SHOW YOU MY IDOL + HER PARTNER.

shes amazing. her partner’s hot.

fullstop.

In 8.5 hours time, I’ll be at the starting line.
Hopefully in 11 hours time, I’ll be done =X LOL

and, go np kayaking!
GOGOGOGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

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it’sonly22kmidamnwellsurecandothisimsogoingtocomebackfeelingallenergized
andhappyanditdoesntmatterevenifidontwinanythingcosiveputinmyverbest.
isurehopethatiswhat’sgoingtohappentmrw.

GO, BEL!

Was late for stb guest speaker’s talk, so had breks at canteen1 before heading up to find missongmayleng for some counselling session (?) hahaha. Was so nervous until I had to release my shit first, then finally gathered up the courage to go up. But it turned out fine, and I had good fun talking to her actually (: She’s a totally awesome advisor, please. Let us have her again next year!

Lessons were long and taxing today. Fell asleep during tlaw.. but seeing my baby got me refreshed (: Anna said she couldnt understand why I see him alr will feel happier. Lol. I hope one day she’ll meet that guy she deserves (: She’s such a nice soul.  2 hours of TDM tutorial after law lecture, and shurun came to np to find me. Went to the library to watch a movie before meeting junling, and we packed dinner and headed back to my place. Just lazed around the room and talked about nothing. As I’m blogging this, stupid shurun is on my desktop (okay now shes on the phone with her *darling-.-*) prolly msn-ing her *darling*. It’s been so long since she stayed over! Heh. Cant stand it shes totally smiling to herself every 10 seconds. But I love the girls anyhow! (:

and one last, before i head off..

youre not outcasted, cos im in your heart no matter where you are.
i just hope you know that.

I love falling asleep on kallang waters. Makes me feel right at home.
But sometimes I’m scared I’ll wake up in the waters instead of still sedated in the boat =X
idontwannashifttoelsewhere,idontwannatrainelsewhere.
i’m right where i belong at kallang.

anyways,
long day tmrw ):
hate fridays.
well at least tmrw gg to see shuuuu and jl! whee.
sat’s for studying.
sun’s the big day.

im watching this shaolin rerun on tvee now, 1243am. LOL
recently ive been watching a lot of night tvee programmes zzzz.
10pm coffee prince, despite having the dvds.
11pm some hk serial show that ive watched before alr.
12am the stupid wushu/shaolin show.
and diff shows for diff days.

i feel old, tadadadadadada.

okay running nowwwwwwwww.

byebyeybyeyeyeyyeybeybybyeybybeye
damn sleeepy.

g’night, world.

happy 11th&1day heh.

you know you’re in love when,

he brings you up to heaven,
or brings you back from hell.
when his smile makes yours,
or he laughs along with you.
when small talk matters not,
even as both of you fought.
when you cross the road,
it’s your hand he holds.
when the rain starts to fall,
he texts you in case you fall.
when you go through your worst,
he’s always there.

and when he’s feeling sad and angry,
you know the first thing you want to do,
is to put the smile
back where it belongs.

together we paved a path for ourselves,
so together,
we’ll walk this road till the very end.
come rainy days or whatsoever,
don’t feel ‘fraid to use my shoulders,
for im here always to wipe your tears,
and to warm you up again.

without reasons, obligations except one exception,

that’s cos i love you so.

11th, & it’s you i love.
je t’aime,
je t’adore,
(just in case baby, it means i love you in a stronger context!)

my silly french kwala.

im looking down at you smiling up at me (: 

Bye bye NCM 2007,
hello NCM 2008.

but addie, i’ll always rmbr how we survived that first competition together.

This time round, it’ll be held at Kallang. They say we have homeground advantage, but so what, if no hard work, no efforts, no 100% were put in? This can make or break us. The team has never felt so split up before.

im gg to have to row past this stupid flyer all alone, THRICE!

but me, being strong me, can do it!!

and look at my only picture with this new paddle ive recently, .. acquired! hahaaha.

and good luck to all, for im standing on the grounds where k rowers have to do their portages on!

and lastly,
for my sweetest baby.
im right there with you, come what may.
hold the faith,
and we’ll hold each other
all the way.

so fucking useless.

Openhouse has ended! But it was great fun with the class while it lasted (: Hehehe (hannarh esp you lah, shitgirlsufang).

baby,
all that i wanna tell you, i already did just now, and i hope you know im always here. (okay i know you know cos ive been telling you =D) it’s been a beautiful day with you, and i hope youre feeling better already. i’ll bring you go eat nydc’s mudpie next time =P and katong laksa no hum. and, i let you win all the games today at settlers one lor. next time i’ll trash you until you scared =P

i just love you so, very much. smile, now (:

photos!

jh was the sweetest thing. he wanted to make sure the spore flyer looks like a crown on my head! sweet right hehehehe

my sexy baby. hot stuff.

intercontinental’s toilet!

bored during wine&cheeseee.

looks like a pig right.hahaha

(: happy girls.

miss shit! =D

GUESS WHO!

okay, feeling a tad sleepy. training’s still on tmrw. ecd report to complete.

g’night, world.

loveyababy.