Please wait for her return.

all my life i’ve made many wrong choices and took many wrong paths.
when i finally feel like ive done the right thing,
why does it feel wrong too?

when your usual timings are already like shit, and your current ones are 10 seconds more than the usual,

how?

DIE LOR.

Words don’t always match actions.
What’s said doesn’t always match what’s really felt.

I don’t usually feel l.o, but I guess attachment really does that to you.

My tummy’s been hurting the whole fucking day and I’ve shat at least 5 times already. MAKE THAT THE SIXTH TIME.

FUCK!

Hello all!

Just got back from Caps Juliet a day early. Well, apart from not being able to get easy access to the toilets/showers.. I thought the whole camp was quite fun. Although it was unexpected and all, I guess we all made do despite whining and complaining intially, so I hope the organizing committee feel better after the whole thang cos it was really quite fun (:

First night was spent in school, getting to know our groups, swopping people, running around playing, planning for Greeeeeeedy Canoeists’ Camp, and snuggling into the sleeping bags (:
Paddling was fun with the love and we all made it safely to Ubin without a single capsize, apart from those who jumped in or played around. The toilets were…….. The water that was running out of the taps was… red/brown/rust-smelling/gross/undrinkable/unable to wash up. EEEEW. But overall it was really quite fun (: cos many people and all, and so many sprinting juniors to play cards/throw stones/talk cock with and the polo juniors were all great too hehe.

Yay I hope Group 1 wins the overall champion lor! Best denki leh! Hahahahahah.

Hope everyone there is having fun at the bbq and campfire! (:

I love you cycling me around,
and all the more, I love you (:

who’s looking curiously into another life.

Work’s kinda driving me nuts lately.
Ironic thing is, I’ve barely started.
3rd week running.. I hope before I know it, 5 months will end.

Happy birthday Lawrence & Alex! (:
hope you guys enjoyed the dinner/cake! (:

I figure this is just a passing phase, like an adaptation period..
I’m supposed to be more mature than this, and I will be. When I become sleepy at the office, I look through all of our photos and they keep me smiling for the rest of the day. Everytime my screensaver comes out, I just watch as pictures after pictures of us fade and appear. From our very first date.. till right now. It never fails to amaze me.

I dont think I’ve ever felt this way towards paddling.
Everyday when I alight from the bus at Little India, I look at the familiar building that shows how nearby Kallang is. And how I am not there. I feel like on waters, I’m no longer just slow. I’m not even moving. I can’t figure my strokes out, my strength’s dropping like hell, I just don’t seem to be pushing at all. Before every trg, I cross my fingers and pray that it’ll be okay that day. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. POLITE’s coming but looking at my current state, I highly doubt aiming high will be a sensible thing to do. I miss the people, I miss the team, in a very weird way that words just can’t put it right. Let’s just hope by doing all other exercises on wkdays will help.. and come weekends, I’ll be able to feel better, not stuck in a bloody freeze-ass office with tonnes of junk food.

The simplest thing brings the most joy sometimes.
The very minute I stepped out of the building, the first person I saw was you.

And that was all that matters.

there are some friends who will always be here no matter what, no matter when,

even if for the longest time, you haven’t shared your deepest thoughts and feelings.

those, are friends for life.

and there’s always someone silently waiting by you,
to catch you when you fall.

a soul mate.

carried so much hope and faith and love,
your heart feels like it’ll explode any minute.
or everytime you reach out, up above,
you know for sure you’ll touch a star.
the minute you open your eyes each day,
you know the skies will never be gray.
alluring, such is of love,
yet awaiting, can be ever arduous.
protecting, fighting, believing,
struggling, wriggling, running away,
cowardice, bravery, mockery.
all for an emotion,
all yearns to devour.
when promises don’t match,
when dreams become impossible to catch,
when you hear the doors latch,
you know,
you know you will still walk on,
with the lingering memories,
the taste of sweetness, ever bittersweet,
mystifying the haven you’ve created,
coroding into the beliefs you’ve urged,
holding on to many yesterdays,
and looking forward to never ending tomorrows.
when at times, it seems like too far away,
to hold, to feel, to see with your eyes,
close them, and seek love,
away from all the goodbyes, and sighs,
and through the night,
you’ll see,
how easy to love it can be.

Hello. I kinda have a lot to update but I’m pretty much wiped out after a long but good week.

Work has been not bad, considering I thought I probably won’t be able to wake up in time or I’ll hate my colleagues or have nothing to do. IN FACT, everything’s the exact opposite. Deb and I have been reaching office at least half hour everyday, and on weirder days, we reached earlier -.- Today I went back to work on a SAT alone… and I reached at 8.20….. AND since the office is CISCO-armed, I cldnt tap my card lest CISCO turns up -.- So i slept at the reception till freaking 930 when the first person came. WAHLAU!?!?!?
My colleagues are pretty nice (: Mooncakes at work are horrible and they make you fat. Lipton sucks, say thanks to teh tarik satchets and earl grey’s please. And, I have a lot to do, so much that smtimes I have no time to go to the loo ):

So there’s that update, WEEK 1 DOWN.
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Tennis on thurs night w the love, emm and tong. Hahahah played until left one ball. Quite the usual case. LOL.
Last night was nydc with the love and, I love you even if you can’t read my blog (:

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So off I go for an afternoon nap before badminton later. WAH TIRED ):
PADDLE TMRW YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D Can’t wait!!!

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REPLIES

Koonchin! Yes yes I’m okay (: love you too. Hope you’re doing okay in HK yeah. Be positive.. at least you get to eat Har Gao at your whim!! ):

KIngston! IM OKAY! Nothing happened, just a bout of er, work-swing. LOL. Hope SIxth Sense is fun to work at ah. Be glad YAXXX dint get the job and you did. Hahaha

OKTO, so who the hell are you? LOL

Puiyin! LOL AT YOU. Don’t go UK lah ):

Makmak! dinner soon dinner soon, or maybe CAROUSEL soon? and I love you too girl. Always(:

just fuck off and die.

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actually work hasnt been THAT bad. so why do i feel like im about to break down any moment now?