Please wait for her return.

2009 spells uncertainty more than any thing else.
It’s the start and end of so many things.

The end of my 3 years in Ngee Ann.
The day I wrote TRM on the form is ever so clear still, with all the sleepless nights about all the decision making of going to poly or jc and what course to take and blah. My aunt had to patiently counsel me through those weeks of waiting and if she hadn’t managed to convince my parents poly’s the route for me.. I don’t know what I’ll be today.

The end of rowing for the team.
It just isn’t going to be the same going back as an alumni, if even. If not for Addie, my life in canoeing wouldn’t have had a beginning. Should I be glad? Bullshit question, right? Haha. I love this sport, and all that it’s given me, including the team which I’ve grown to appreciate and love.

The beginning of yet another journey.
University? Where? How to get in? Can get in? $$ how? Extending at Pacworld? Go somewhere else? How?
Help? Twenty five thousand question marks and zero answers.

Many new friends made, and many old ones that carry on the memories year after year still.
Many changes, many projects, many learning experiences.
A crazy semester in the first half of the year, and the wretched attachment in the second half. It’s not so bad, really, but sometimes you just wonder if there’re better things to do with your time. Takes time away for doing things you love to, just hanging out with jh, gg down to kallang as and when I want to, not miss the runs during combined trgs, not drifting apart from anyone and really, just hate the having to change my routines part. Okay enough about attachment.

My friends.
All of y’all, every single one, who’s been there for me throughout.. yknow who you are.. Thank you, so very much.
Be it classmates, teammates, schoolmates or just people who’ve crossed paths with me.. Thank you.
Just some shoutouts to the usual few (: I just can’t resist!
Laupy: Have a good 2009 in UK cos not all of us get the luxury to =P Always looking forward to your emails so keep them coming (: Love you girl. Stay safe.

Makjunling: Meetups have been sparse this year but it doesn’t change a thing about us. And that’s what a true friendship is all about. <3 you, and rmbr, same side of the boat, 100% support in whatever you choose to do (:

Shurun: You ah, all I can say is… know you for so long already…… TIME TO GO SCHOOL AGAIN HOR???? Be good!!! And love you too! (((:

Koonchin Sin: HAHAHAHHA according to your company email title lor hahahaha. What are the chances that I end up liasing with you lor, from spore to hk. So SUAY!!!!!! But no choice, have to love you also for all our study sessions and freaking early 6am breakfasts -.- Come back soon! DONT EXTEND AHAHAH.

Ah fuck, this entry seems way too long and wordy =\ And I’m just too lazy to upload any pictures…….
But okay I wanted to do a short shout out to all in the team too but.. not today. Soon soon!

And lastly, how can I ever forget (rather, how you think I’ll forget)…
MY BABYYYYYYYYYYYY (:

The Twee & The Kwala

Dear Santa,

I haven’t been a good girl this year, but you still gave me the best present I could ever ask for.

Thank you.

Love, bel

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Merry Christmas, and Happy Boxing Day!
I haven’t blogged in ages, damn.

but i’m holding on.
i’m gonna be your number one.

I can’t get your smile out of my mind
(i can’t get you out of my mind)
I think I bought your eyes all the time
Your beautiful, but you don’t even try
(you don’t even, don’t even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I’m speechless,
Over the end of this,
Breathless,
I never thought
That I’d catch
This love bug again
Hopeless,
Head over heels
In the moment, t
I never thought
That I’d get hit by,
This love bug again

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Random songs. The words in bold reminds me of laupy. ahahahah.

I never thought this’d happen, but I’m actually counting down to 6th Feb. Or rather, 9th Feb, when the final report is submitted and attachment can be declared over, FOR GOOD. Whether or not I go back as a part time or proj basis doesn’t matter right now, cos I just wanna take a month off to do nothing, rot around, paddle as much as I feel like, do all the shit like nothing, and just well, do nothing.

I’m aching, very happily. Sat was tiring cos of the resistors, Sun was tiring cosbed of cher, Mon was tiring cos I was just weak.

Ah shit I used to blog like once a day, or at least once in 2 or 3 days so I can recollect what happened over the duration. Now that I’m blogging like once in 5 days or more, I can’t seem to remember what’s happened =\
Finally met up with the couple, audrey and john, for john’s birthday dinner. Hahaha attempted surprise failed but nevertheless, a good catch up session (:

See, now I’m distracted by agm. K ciaos, will update again.

Iloveyou, more than words can say.
Do yknow, can you feel it tonight?

Jess. Pls take care in HKG. Eat more okay? (:
Laupy. Tkcare in Celtic Manor haahahha chawanmushi and ss ):
Junling. Tkcare in SIM and you’ll pull through to get your degree, promise(: hugs*
Koonchin. Tkcare in HKG too, and please get well soon. I’ll see you really really soon ;D
LinJunhan. I love you.

Every night, I come home to the same thing. Is it ever going to change? Are you guys, ever?

Every year I look forward to Christmas, especially when auntie sue’s around. I hope this year the anticipation doesn’t die down.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE SUE. If only you knew how sorely missed you are ):

Internship’s really draining.
G’night, world.

for everybody around me to be happy.

Mak Junling, please be happy.
Don’t worry about the guilt of being upset, cos you have all rights to, in our own world (:

Lunches this week have mainly been currypuffs and I foresee tmrw, Deb will join me in this currypuff frenzy cos of laziness =\

I always log in feeling like I’ve a lot to blog about. Yet when I arrive at this page, I’m always rendered.. wordless. I don’t know what’s wrong, what went wrong but I do know that, this isn’t it and I’ll do whatever it takes to make it right again.

Laupyyyyy: Elizabeth easier leh? =D
Koonchin: See you reaaaaal soon yea? *winks* hehhehhe

I had a surprise at *bucks last night.. and PEARL is my surprise! Hahaha
Was blackmailed into thinking of ideas for her ED essay ahahah.

Everyday’s the same thing. Wake up go work go sch go home.
Help?