UNGLAM AT HER BEST

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

nobody told me it was going to be this hard.
nobody told me you will be everywhere i go.

I am very lucky, and thankful
1. To be in Pacific World
2. To be in CME department
3. To have such wonderful colleagues, even though not in the same department
4. To be with Anna Debbie Huiting

It’s been a coming 5 month stint and although I hated the idea from the start, I think at least now, I wouldn’t be afraid in the working society. Not as afraid as before. Took a lot of precious time away, spending 9-6 everyday in the office, sometimes not even doing much. Took time away from hanging out with loved ones, from trainings, from self-time, and sometimes even from sleeping. But I really learnt a lot. Not exactly work-related, but more of how realistic this world is, how hard it is to satisfy everybody, how demanding the industry is, how people behave and why so.. and most of all, how to cherish and appreciate all work put in by various individuals. Sad to say, the scariest part of this internship stint isnt over, cos we still have the final report to go. F*(&(*&@(£$*@)£($*@£()$*.

It’s 5.43pm, PANG GANG in a while’s time. Hahaha.

A random something that reminds me of you:
I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

I’m burning up and the office’s a literal freezer these couple of days.
I’m confused. Why’s it like that now, have I gone wrong somewhere?

“He, did not come to be served but to serve & to give his life as ransom for many.”
For what He’s done, I wish I’ll grow up to be a more useful person.

I hate being stupid.

Happiness is not a destination, but a method of life.

In less than 3 weeks, I’ll be 20. A whole bunch of mixed feelings. Not exactly dreading it, but just not very looking forward either, I guess.

Dreading final report. I don’t want to see another lousy grade. I’d much rather take exams.

My eyes have been hurting quite badly for the past 2 days and constantly tearing up for no reasons whatsoever. Argh.

Red Cliff 2 was awesome. The movie was really great, the company, even better.

I haven’t read any impactful books in ages. I want a,.. tear-jerker this time round.

For now, I need to focus… on ANTM.

g’night world, g’morning py =D

because,
1) I received an sms early in the morning from UK!!! thanks lpy!!!! =D
2) Whatever it is, I still finished my 14km on K1 despite.. hiccups.
3) I just am.

Just finished my periodic report and hopefully this time he’ll find it DETAILED and IN-DEPTH enough cos I exceeded the word limit, just as he wants it to.

Ip Man on Sat with wanling and jp. Nice show ah! Hahahaha
And JE Entertainment Centre totally disappointed our dear wanling who had a very strong craving to play pool hahahahah it closed down!!!! Or under renovations, same lah. Hahahahaha. So we all went home.

Sunday was SCM’09.
Congrats to all medalists! Y’all were great!
Congrats to JJ also, for completing his desired 36km and coming back in one piece hahahahaha and.. Not wanting to do the same distance next year, as expected!!!
Congrats to all who took part, cos cos cos, you guys just rock! (:
KI AH.

And baby, you deserved that 1st, so don’t dwell anymore (: I love you.

I hate being helpless, but it makes you stronger over time. Right? Right.

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For my dearest Mak mak, if you’re reading:
Stay strong and happy for she wants to remember and see you that way. Dinner soon, stay free! <3

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It’s a horribly boring day at work today..
No boss, no jacq, nobody. Thank God for shuhui.

Back to stoning.
BYEBYE.

I’m never going to be the best in anything I do, or have done. It’s quite sad, quite depressing and very demoralizing. In studies in sports in everything else, but.. it’s okay.

I was nerve-wrecked this morning. I had no idea what to expect, where I stood, and where others did. After everything, I felt settled cos at least I tried. I feel that even if I don’t qualify, at least I’ve tried. It was quite an experience and despite the fierce competition, they were all very friendly and helpful. Come 2 weeks, results will be out. But it’s okay, I did my best and well, time to move on! A rough breakdown: Weights were disappointing, dips were expected, pull ups were average and thank God situps and running dint fail me this time even though it could have been better.

Tomorrow…. kaozxz the only thing I can think of is.. DAMN EARLY LAH?????? AND how the hell am I going to do the portages?! HAAHAHHA OKAY lai, whatver, ALL THE BEST!

Actually I wanted to blog about a lot of stuff leh, but it’s been a long and tiring week..

So I’m gonna end here!! =D

BYEEEEEE.

C for Christabel.
C for Canoeing.
C for Cheerful Chirpy Cat Chorlor Crazy

& C, is also the grade for the fucking report.