Please wait for her return.

I don’t have the love for this, so why am I torturing myself by telling myself it’ll get better as the weeks go by??? 
I’m missing so many training sessions..

I’m just so so so tired.
Thank God work’s keeping me busy and friends,

really, they are amazing people.

ALL OF THEM.

Somehow, it’s all gonna be okay cos I’m going to get back on track and er,

do what?

Yay surf&sweat this sunday with the nh pple! (JESS!!!! FOR YOU!!!! HHAHA) I really need to SWEAT a bit lor, I’ve put on weight even though I’m missing meals?? What kinda logic is this. Hahahaha.

Recently, this fb trend got all the nh people so excited!! (especially mel, who still secretly checks on my blog huh!)
Nostalgia nostalgia, all over again.

Still can’t quite believe I’m 20 now. Feels funny, though at the stroke of midnight then, I felt nothing.

I’ve been updating a lot less this year. Actually, since the start of attachment.

FINALLY SUBMITTED MY REPORT ON MONDAY. (if i don’t fail that, im officially a graduate student!)

I like to talk to jacq at work. She makes me understand from different POVs all the time. Although she always bully me dont let me go eat at The Line lor hor???? ):

Flyer on Monday was great. Singapore’s really pathetically small, but beautiful lah. Dian Xiao Er was awesome!!!
Hehehe.

 Last night was Clarke Quay with wanling.. Was good too, though my shin hurt like fuck (and still is!!!) and couldn’t bear the train ride so decided to take bus instead. Thanks girl, for the company (:

Today was meeting, then now.. blogging :X
okay i really should get back to work.

Maybe we’re trying 
Trying too hard 
Maybe we’re torn apart 
Maybe the timing 
Is beating our hearts 
We’re empty 

It’s been the most crazy week, ever.

Was wiped out after Syngenta ended. Shangrila was awesome but dint have any time to try the ultra big gym and super deep pool ): But at least, I made use of the daily breakfasts at The Line =D
Tiring week, but made it through with the part-timers who helped make the process a lot easier.
Wanling Debbie Natalie Hairul and Guanren for most days, and the rest includes Anna Chinkoon Cheekee Henry and Xiangjin.

On the last day, lotsa fun deep-diving and tearing posters and ruining our smoooooth hands with the girls! Realized wanling does make a potential paper-shredder. HAAHHAAHAH. ONE RANDOM CONVERSATION CK AND I HAD, BEFORE I FORGET.

We were tearing posters and I was just done with mine, so I was just looking around and calling names..
Me: OCK AH………………
CK: *hands over more posters*

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF I JUST FINISHED MY PILE KNS AND HE ANYHOW JUST PASSED ME MORE. OKAY it was hilarious there and then.

So many funny incidents throughout the entire week.. Wanling especially, on the last night, cracked us up like hell. Hahahahahahah!!!!

Affinity with Lily Rooms with Nat’s company. Shiok maincourse with mel and debs cos Ameen was just way too nice to us lah haahahhaah. Crazy turnovers, crazy late nights, crazy early mornings..

ALL OVER NOW!!!!! (shit i sound so excited ahahahahah)
All in all, it was a good experience and well..

Zonked out and happily overslept on friday morning :X Hahahahaha.
NOW AWAITING PAY ONLY LOR HOR HAHAHAAHHA WOOOOOOOO.

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LAUPY here’s your update lor, happy?????

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Today signals the first sign of normalcy after a hectic week.

Headed down to row for abit w ling’er and alph. Met jj for some waraku delight and the usual ebitaimaki that never comes on the first call -.- Retail therapy was soothing.. Alph died while waiting for ling’er and me to pick our stuff haahahahahah.

Met up for a movie, some kick-ass pasta and more chilling at starbucks.. Heart to heart was good.. Company was great.. Food was overwhelming.. Somehow, it all just makes sense.

And now, enough of digressing…………….

BACK TO REPORT BYEBYE!!!

Fuzzy Warm Frightening.
I can somehow relate to that.

do you ever know if you’ll ever feel better?
and how do you know,

what to do what to think..

when you’re really all alone, now.

This year’s birthday, I have to say, is very unpredictable. I didn’t know what to expect, what to do, where to go, or stuff like that. But as God’s wish, I had a good time afterall!

Many thanks to all who called and texted (on the dot!) HAHA and everyone else who wished me somehow or another (with the advanced technology of facebook, especially). All wishes are greatly appreciated! Esp from those whom I’ve lost contact with over the years and to know they still rmbr the date, makes me happier than ever.

To a few special lot. (i try to rmbr the sequence of events..ahaha)

1. Debbie Anna Huiting
The entire 5 months are drawing to an end. No more lunches together. No more running over to each other’s cubicles and snacking and talking away. No more waiting for each other after work. No more every little stuff we’ve done together for the past 5 months, but memories will always be here to stay. Thank you for the SEXY TOP which color i love, and the quite expensive cake!! VERY NICE LOR. Thank you so much for trying to surprise me though it failed =P okay lah, bad timing but very appreciated nevertheless. Got to know you girls better after this whole internship stint, and I’ve to say, I really got to learn a lot from all of you.. (:

2. Junling & Shurun
I almost wanted to kill Junling for insisting on meeting me for lunch cos there are no good food places around and it’s damn far from her place. Met her at kopitiam.. with my first surprise – SHURUN!! Then.. bags of home-cooked food appeared!!!! A lot okay. And all were very very very nice!! Every year birthday sure spend w you two, and I’m glad as hell this year wasn’t an exception. Thank you both so much, for just being my bestest girls ever. Irreplaceable (: And, you two cooked so much that my pantry fridge still has your salad and pasta!!! HAHAHA

3.  My dearest colleagues 
Jacq Val Phin Mel Waileng Marlinda Lynn and Daniel
For being such jokers ah, trick me with the bottle first!! But it wouldn’t have mattered, cos I know I’m damn lucky a girl to have such nice people as colleagues and friends for attachment (and extension!!). For always helping me along the way for the past 5 months etc etc (okay I shld cut this short cos they don’t read my blog) but in any case, I hope they know I LURVE them too. Beautiful Adidas watch and bottle (:

Gay Shu Hui
This is another colleague, who went to make 20 green roses into a beautiful bouquet.. made a damn cute and pretty card with lotsa heartfelt words written, and a slice of chocolate cake (: Dint get to know her until she transfered over, and from then on, she is just this girl who’s very willing to listen no matter when/how/what/who/why and be there as a friend throughout all the shit <3

And also, for the jacket and notebook, thank you (:

4. I’ll input some other stuff first.

Lau Puiyin, with her quite accurate long-d call all the way from UK!!!!! Missed you so much and your voice sounded just like.. YOURS. What can I say!!! Hahahaha thank you girl, for the thought and the expensive 1 min call.. (: love ya and stay safe o’er there!

Elaine & Chinkoon
For their intended surprise for a lunch visit.. only to be spoilt cos poor girl sprained her foot and I alr had plans. But for the sweet thought, thank you both!! (: Stay happy hor! (:

Wanling
You the best girl. And for believing in me and all, thank you. (also for spamming so many smses ah!! hahahaha) <3

Jess
We always go through shitty periods together. And all the time, you’ll be a shoulder for me to lean on when I need to stop and take a break, and listen when I need to just rant. Same goes for you if you need to, and you know it. SO DONT BE SHY OK.  :D (and ur last sms that included RS in it.. made me LOL-ed!!!) <3 you girl, stay strong too (:

5. Junhan
It’s been one hell of a week. It still feels unreal, even today. But thank you, for ending off my night with just your company. You still owe me one pho meal ah. And the tiramisu “surprise” was cute. And you gotta admit, I’m quite good at gin rummy =D and, for just talking about everything and..
I missed you. Still miss you. Always am and will be. I believe somehow it will all fall into place, we just need that little bit of time to think. The warmth of your hug, the familiar smell, the every little thing that makes you, hit me bad last night. So many things to say.. but you know, some things dont have to be said. So, thank you for your company and dinner and the bag which I love, really, and.. for your love. 
We’ll find our way out. I love you.

6. My family – who stayed up till I got home to cut cake and sing my dreaded birthday song for me (:
Auntie sue & uncle adrian for their birthday song rendition over a long-d call.. so it was kinda laggy but sweet nonethless (: (plus their very ultra super lame card)

My cousin in Msia with the same birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZEJIAN!! (:

And, Weihong’s birthday today, a day after mine!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOO FEB BABIES KICK ASS!!!

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All in all, it’s been an eventful day. It’s finally over and done with, and now I’m 20, I should be wiser right? AUNTIE BEL LEH ):

I hope I dint miss out anything and to end off..
I’m dreading turning 21 already.

HAHAHAHA!!!!

is all about learning to be a stronger person.