Please wait for her return.

It’s been an interesting trip. Familiar dirt noise dark alleys roadside markets in Saigon. Loved it though I missed home. Learnt a lot, screwed up a bit, and tried harder at other stuff. Guess I really gotta have more confidence and faith in my capabilities (whatever i have??? AHHAAH). Company was awesome, esp rooming with shuhui and learning a lot from her.. in terms of work and general stuff. ETC ETC ETC I can go on all day about it but I will stop here.

SO HOW GOT MISS ME NOT??? GOT RIGHT!!!! =D
IKNEWIT!!!

Today was spent at Bedok Reservoir cheering the finalists in their races for MR500. This year, the whole thang seemed a tad scaled down, or rather, less familiar faces around.. maybe? But yeah, overall, everyone did great (:
To tampines for lunch. Haven’t been there since forever. Walked around aimlessly before most of them left. Wanling jj lawr and I headed down to mccafe where I slept for a couple of hours.. before heading to town for our dearest Waraku!!!! =D
Then it was random shopping/walking around/laughing till we died at Waraku cos of JJ’s bloody accent ahahahahahah.

Home Sweet Home.
Now.. gonna finish up my OC!!!

Junling.. I’m safe and ALIVE. don’t worry so much already k =D
Jess.. I know.. you constantly miss me 24/7 awwwww.
Puiyin.. WHEN U FINISHING ATTACHMENT??????? Seems like it’s taking forever lorzxzxz
Fio.. YOU TWALALA WAD?? LOL
Spens.. K BYE. Nah, your something SHORT. AHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH

I hope I can wake up tmrw for work.
GOD BLESS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

It is quite scary, but I actually haven’t popped by my own blog in like a week.
In this week, I’ve managed to master Microsoft Excel MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I’m a pro now!!!!!
Don’t remind me, though, thanks.

Popeyes 2 times in a week! Cheap thrills that make me happy for a minute hehehe.
Honest people, comfortable people, comfort food, comfort places.. How much more can I get, how much more can I want? A step at a time, we’ll all keep going.

Headed down to Kallang for trg, finally had the time and energy to.
Left within 15 mins due to _______________ (thou shall not mention here), went on an impromptu trip to sentosa with wanling jiajun alvin. Random?? Yes, very.
LJS breks,Starbucks, Cafe Del Mar, frisbee (which we all admittedly sucked at – TOLD Y’ALL TO GET BALL LIAO!!!! NOT SO MALU!!!), HOTLIKEFUCK, sleep sleep sleep, palawan koufu, back to vivo for Superdog, sleep sleep sleep, HOME. Supposed to meet melody at m.sq but it began pouring and all so yep.

But I’m wiped out. Die, what happened to stamina??? The only “exercise” I had today was probably walking 5 steps to retrieve a frisbee, or okay la, we walked a bit from tram stations to other places and all. BUT STILL!!!! OK tmrw gym &/or swim. Wanna head down for trg but… _______________.
Will see how it goes.

Am flying off to HCMC this fridaaaaaay! Hopefully will have time to blog again before that and during my trip hehehe. Hell of a mixture of emotions all jumbled into a lump – fear excitement and er, ok mainly 2. lol

If I haven’t mentioned this before, here goes.
Wanling is one hell of a sweet girl. Dependable, trustworthy, steadypompeepee but a bit deaf only lah =D
Love ya and thank you for the support (for everything, yes!) (:

Ran into junling last night at m.square hehehe. What a coincidence! (Let’s not mention it was in a toilet)

Gotta admit..
I’ve never been so drained before.

Haven’t seen you in such a long time
and I wonder all the time, how you are
Each day when dawn breaks
and the sun shines through your blinds
Still sleeping, your mind’s still fabricating
the beautiful dreams you are warped in
I hope for you,
that you are happy and safe
When the skies get stormy and grey
I know, I see you walking home alone
Don’t worry, the rain won’t come
‘Cos I’ll be that invisible shelter for all time
Lonely long silent nights,
You sit by the panes, staring, pondering
Wondering what went wrong, where and how
There I am, you can’t see me
Right by your side,
Scraping through with you
Answers that never came
Words that remain undivulged
Emotions that flow deep
Memories, so sweet, so dark
those to keep, and the rest that scar
Through your mind,
every waking moment,
You know we had so much to thank for
So much to keep dear, to keep close
That mirror we both stand in front of
shows reflections of how we have grown
With, for and from each other
Cycles of seasons pass us
Years have gone by, words unspoken
I see you there,
By that cinema that’s torn down
Forlorn, all alone.

And that reminds me,
I was just looking at myself.

Christabel Tan Zhiying is at work.
(but late lah)

HAHA.

Surprisingly didn’t have any trouble waking up at all despite chugging down the beers. In fact, the only one who didn’t drink couldn’t wake up lor hahaha.
Headed to town with steffi and phin to meet mel and lynn for dinner after work, shopped around, sat around then to dempsey for drinks. Good night out, and if not for the fact that 3 out of 5 of us had to work this morning, we probably would have sat all the way till 5am. Hahahaha. Good company good dinner good drinks good Friday night. More to come!

Feel like sleeping now..
Nobody’s really around anyway……………

g’night =P

christabel – really. i still miss us, no matter how many times we’ve met up. i hope you’re getting on fine, you know i’m here. i hope you’re not tiring yourself out, you have the tendency to neglect your health, always! take care alright, im also thankful to have sat beside you in sec 4, to share my shits and be on the same side of the boat. hahaha. love you girl, sizzler soon.

to the girl who wrote this in her blog, thank you. (i just purposely don’t wanna mention your name even though i think quite obvious leh? hahaha)
of course you should be thankful i sat beside you in sec4.. because of you, i got thrown to the back of the class every amath lesson we had! cos i supposedly DISTRACTED you when you were the one who couldn’t stop talking to me lor hahaha! okay lah mak junling, iloveyou (:

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19 years of life have ended. Just started on the 20th one, hoping to move on to the 21st and more.. in a piece.

When I was in Pri 6, I had not much difficulties in deciding which secondary school to go to. My mom had it all mapped out for me, and even if it irked me then, it was probably the best choice in my entire life. Cos it is in Nanhua Sec where I met all the friends who stuck by me till this very day. It is also there where I first fell and picked myself up. A lot happened in the span of 4 years and that helped make me a stronger person today.

After O’levels, I had trouble deciding on Alevels or Diploma. First 3 months were 3 shitty months even though I played tennis there for the first time hahaha. I first learnt how to play truancy there too :X That aside, I realized JC life really isn’t for me. Not with a combination like Econs Lit History Math. So much cramming for no reason. After much contemplation, confusion, discussion, persuasion, I went to NP for tourism. Why not SP? I have no fricking idea. Just dint have an urge to go there hahaha. Supposed I made the right choice too, afterall I’m still alive and kicking now.. and almost a graduate.

Now, the time has come to make the most important decision I ever had to (i guess?). I know for sure now, I want to go to Adelaide and further my studies there. Sure, some people will go like, WHERE THE HELL IS THAT PLACE ANYWAY, but who gives. I’m the one going, I’m the one studying, the rest of you should just shut your trap if you have nothing nice to offer. (sorry a bit agitated) I’ll admit, before  the whole breakup came, I was more than ready to settle everything in Singapore. I very almost threw the thought of furthering my studies in Adelaide out, and knowing that it’ll disappoint my aunt though I know she’ll fully understand my decision. Now, it’s time to start waking up and knowing that nothing is forever. Very very very cliche, but nothing IS forever. So yay, if uniSA wants me, I’ll go. I’ll go and be a happy girl and get the damn degree that everyone will have anyway and just.. GO. 

One more decision to make, and that is if I should continue with the trg squad. It was a stupid decision to go for the trials, and even stupider to keep going, knowing that the heart’s not in it at all. When the main purpose of joining fell through, nothing else seemed to matter anymore. I tried to imagine it’s like rowing for ngee ann canoeing, how my attendance was almost a full 100% over the 2.5 years, how much I look forward to each trg, how hard I pushed myself. I just can’t do it. I can’t do it and lie to myself, pretending it’s fun, I understand it, they understand me. Cos truth is, they don’t, and I don’t. Some have advised me to keep going for a few more months, maybe the passion will come. But I’ve been so tied down by stuff I can’t really see myself going for the Macau Race anyway. Sitting here and typing this now amazes me. How on earth did I manage to go for all the consecutive sea trainings and all, yet now, it’s just.. so blah.

My head’s spinning like mad now, the air conditioning at the reception is making me shiver like crap. Lunchtime will be here in 17 mins as of now. 

Kickboxing on Monday was gooood. Thighs aching like crap. Managed to vent quite a bit, poor val :X Dinner/Supper at BK wooooo tendergrill x2!

Oh, attempted to make applications to UniSA while waiting for dinner and guess what, the course programs for 2010 won’t be out till prob June July Aug period zzz Made me feel like a kanchiong spider. Hahaha. Late dinner at Newton Circus with tonnes of food and laughter. May Friday come soon so we can all chillax one corner.

I think what I need is a lot of myself-time.
I like to think a lot, and I believe in what I think. 
I miss him still, this sucks. It should be getting better.. and it will.

k know what, it’s too fricking cold out here.
i’m just gonna sneak back in.. and LUNCH.

LOOOOOOOONG ENTRY.
sorry if y’all got bored halfway through (if u even made it halfway, that is)

XOXOXOXO

Am sitting at the reception desk, feeling like it’s winter.. and summer.

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Surf and Sweat 09 was a blast! Despite not having won anything, think we pretty much had fun just playing (CIVILLY, unlike many other teams). Tanjong’s waters really are very very very very clean so jess and i went down for a dip after our last match. <3 this girl, she just has her way of making me feel like sometimes, everything’s just gonna be okay (: Finally had sam’s tiong paus again! Hahaha. Got caught in the torrent. Basket. From freaking burnt to hell freezing over. But okay lah, jieying and I had a long romantic walk/run in the rain/cold HAHA officially the most memorable time ever.

Spongebob Squarepants kicked ass ytd! :D
Spongebob: Jess Jieying me Hongsheng Yeewei
Squarepants: Munting Peilin Xiaojie  Kelvin Weiming

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

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Then the day before was chillax at siglap area (omggg  fucking far!!!??? Hahaha) till late with good company and food, of course. HAHAHA.

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laupyyyyy. random, but i just replied your email ahahhaha. missing you!

makk. faster faster exams finishing fasterrrrr!

shu. miss ur mushroom pasta ): LOL

 mel. I KNOW URE STILL READING MY BLOG LOR and if u dont comment in this post, I KNW U STILL READ IT. you just don’t wanna gimme satisfaction and admit that you ARE stalking me and have been ever since we graduated from nh AHAHAHHA

fio. we ARE strong and will continue being so (: thanks girl, and <3 you too.

jiun. zomg your comment scared me. hahaha. yes yes i should be heading over if the uni wants me LOL and i hope ure doing fine over at your part of aussie ah. read your blog and OMG U STARTED LESSONS ALR so freaking fast!! and i’m okay girl, hope you are too (: hugs.

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it’s time to start living for myself.