UNGLAM AT HER BEST

SOOOOOOOOO

Today marked another day at Sentosa with Xj Addie & Qx!
Crazy hot day but I think my frisbee skills improved SLIGHTLY! (JESSSSS, waiting to play w you ^^) & so we got ourselves a lovely tan (which I’m gg to get AGAIN tmrw and sat zz) before heading home (:

I loveeeeee y’all! <3

Public Enemies last night was hilarious!!!!! Someone snored SOOOOOOOO LOUDLY that everyone started giggling at a damn serious scene hahahaha seriously hilarious!
Like everybody’s tweeets, “So weird to be home on a Wed night” HAHA technically I was just bout 200m away from Zouk but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, ABSTINENCE IS BLISS.

Damn funny, the nanhua people are the most wonderful bunch ever!!!!!!!
Meeting makkk tmrw :D
Meeting shu soon, HOR?????
Meeting the flea girls on Sunday!!!
Spens can go eat shit & die (for countless reasons, huh?????)
HB is a piece of funny shit. Hahaha.

Doesn’t matter how cruel life can be  at times, cos the bits of cruelty will always be made up with pieces of love, joy and laughter somehow or another along this long journey. I will not let myself get beaten ever again, I’ll never waver, or fall and even if I ever do, I’ll kick my own ass and stand straight up right away.
It was hard last night, and I won’t deny it’s still on my mind and probably will be for quite some time. I don’t know how to stop thinking but right now, I wish the best for you.

Whoever said life’s easy?

Before I end off, here’s for my new friend JUNETAAAY.
Be positive, you WILL get in (:
SEEE YOU REALLY SOON LOVE  <3

Over and done with National Womens Canoe Champs. Having missed it for 2 years and finally tried again. We did awesome, for our limited paddling sessions and all (: Good job, shortie ;D
We were soooooooo close.

Today was spent nua-ing after the race (:
Then sakae and shoooting at the arcade, wooooooo.

Edwin just told me something hilarious.
That X is in the same bunk as him and his ego is still big like hell! HAHAHAHA
What a smaaaaaaaall world man.

Tomorrow’s day1 at work. Pray for me that I don’t screw up, please.

FF, im glad things are okay for now (: hope srilanka trip turns out goooddd (: love you.
Makmak&Laupyy, thank you for your jiayous and encouragement :D <3 you tooo.
Addie, for your fucking hilarious msn conversations sometimes LOLOLOLOL

Is it me, or do I just have something against nice people?
Why do I always set myself up for disappointments time and time again when there are so many better paths out there obviously laid out for me?
I seriously don’t get this, and I doubt I ever will.

But hey, whatever gives,
I’m okay now. Not my 100% best, but soon, I know soon, I will be.

Just wanna live in this little world I’ve created for myself.
Doesnt everyone just?

GOOD JOB ALL WHO TOOK PART IN N.WOMENS! (:

TOUCHED NOT, TAN QIFANG?
I FOLLOW YOUR TITLE LEH HAAHAHHAHA
(i added the OLD though)

& this is for the little girl who always drenches me like hell after each trg.
I FORGIVE YOU.
TOMORROW LET YOU DRENCH SOMEMORE.
(& PLEASE, I know YOU love paddling w me lor) Taught you so many things over the 3 or 4 times we paddled together. Even though we always never finish our programs, start bracing at our last 25m of our 100m sprints, start drinking dirty water with MY METHOD, and EVEN THOUGH IT TOOK ME 1.5HRS TO GET HOME FROM MACRITCHIE TODAY,
tomorrow is our big day!
May we kick some ass, and even if we don’t get anything eventually,
just let me kick your ass ^^

SLEEP EARLY!!!!!!!!!
<3

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OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY
I’ll sleep before.. midnight.
:D

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UPDATE CONTINUES-

SO ANYWAY, starting work on Monday! HAHAHA. Quite scared/excited, but estee and louisa already started at demps! Met up with Jason today and then poor jiajun had to wait so long for me AHAHHA sorrrrry lah. & damn basket, Astons dint have baked potatoes today! ): Thought of an excuse for jj to go back to work late and we had a scoop of ice cream each ;D Then to mac for training woooo.

Thurs was Sizzler lunch with Miss Goh Shurun and she gave me this box of CONDOM-like chocolates HAHAHAHA so cute lor please, only you’ll think of that ;D had a good time with her and was very awake considering I only slept for an hour plus, and me <3 shuuuuuuuuuu big time (:
LOTR after and tv-ed till late before some spring chicken dinner and headed home (:

Wed half rocked/half sucked.
Last day of b&j trg, then rushed down to seletar for trg. Looking at the 2904829834 juniors nyp and rp have ):
Then home, before meeting kt to head to zouk.
Nicholas’s birthday celebration! It was fun and all and..
that’s about it.
Fucked up thinking about it, really.
So tell me again, why was I feeling bad about last wed?

WHATEVER.

Should sleep, but it’s okay cos tanqifang still awake and high haahahahah

Sam tagged me in her note, “what song each person reminds you of”.
I got “Better in Time” by Leona Lewis.

& I wonder why, all the time.

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Thank you all, for talking rubbish to make me smile silly (:

& falling off it.

Hurts everywhere.
Weekend is coming. LAI.

Crazy Wednesdays.
BUT I like.

Batch54 b&j girls are really nice and funny people, thank God (:
Went for the jab tgd today after “training” hehehe.

but tonight’s a really horrible night.
For once, it feels like nothing can ever put the smile back on.
For once, it feels like it’s never going to be okay again.
For once, it feels like, nobody can ever take your place.
For once, nobody’s attempt to cheer me up is working tonight.

BUT IT’S OKAY.

Cos tmrw’ll be a better day (:

g’night!

You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down

This wed, is officially the weirdest wed ever. The company, that is.
I let it out, I told Addie, and I felt so so so much better. 
Then I was spun round and round and so much happened last night and right now,
we’re NOT going down down.
& a bit shiok, last night apart from Macs breakfast after, I didn’t have to fork out a single cent. Free drinks outside with some people, then headed in and watched them drink. Yay!
Saw jiun amidst it all, and girl, from what I recall, I honestly don’t think you’ve put on any weight, so NO WORRIES OKAY :D
<3 sorry didn’t talk more LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ADDIE!
Although LC’s quite irritating by confiscating your phone and always making me second place in your heart, I KNOW that is NOT the truth and for always being here for me and listening to me from donno when to donno when about every single nitty gritty bit from happy to sad and all,
you deserve a great birthday.
<3

YAY. Finally been to Ubin and CYCLED. YTD!
HAHAHA took some dirt trails and ATTEMPTED  the double black diamond but failed like fuck, duh. Very very very hot but quite exciting and nua-ed with coke and ice cream before heading back to civilisation for Sunshine Cleaning (which was really good!) and some chillax time.
Good and cui-ed day. Yet again.

Today was b&j’s final audition &………..
me got it!
Then addie brought me to bugis street! Yes lah a bit sua gu, whole life never go before.
Quote someone: If I put fb status “GIRL 20 NEVER GO BUGIS STREET BEFORE UNTIL TODAY”, confirm 20 people will comment and laugh.
GOT THAT BAD MEH?
So anyways, bought a couple of stuff and thankyou addie so so very much (:
To strudel shop for chillax before she headed to lc’s place and I went on to clem.
S11 for my first meal (WOW?) and then to arcade for some crazy timecrisis, bball shooting, bishi bashi and spotthediff! HAHAHA yay so fun.

Tmrw is another cui day but TO HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I’m so sleepy I feel so HIGH on oxygen now.

More updates sooooon,
w pictures this time :D hor, addie? :D :D

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THIS, is for gf/partner.
Bloody hell, see you tomorrow and I swear,
YOU ARE NOT FAT! #*$&(@*#&$(*#&@
One more word, tomorrow I make sure we capsize at 1000m.
<3 you all the same, LAI LAI JIAYOU!
(:

“Hectic” week.
Lots happened.

Jess is in Perth already ):
Enlistments all over the place.

It’s been gym/swim/row everyday ): cui ttm hahahaha
(mak mak, tues hor ;D)

Ytd was mac rowing w gf (:
Today was back to kallang hehe (:
For once, I got to wake up at 815 instead of 7! ;D
& srsly got lost on the way back for like an hour odd just going around S’pore, wth.
Shokudu for dinner with the addie and the boyfriend hahsahah super hilarious people please.

My thoughts are all over the place tonight so very hard to brog ):
But, I’m much happier these days.. so I hope that continues!

Thank you alllllllllllllllll, for always making me smile and laugh :D
& jess, you aint alone, never.
Py too (:

<3 to all, g’night!

Today was the ultra slack day.

Supposed to paddle, but woke up later than expected.
Decided to swim instead, and thankfully managed to escape the rain right after I got on the bus to the interchange! Then to TPY safra to meet jiajun to sign up for army half (FOR JOEL TOO LOR STUPID TAN QIZHI HAHAA) then to waraku for lunch before meeting addie! (In btwn with lots of aimless walking haahahah)
Far-east for my belt, then to starbucks to chillax then to ArtFriend at Taka! :D
JJ to meet his frend. Addie to meet Gay6. Me to Central.
Dinner at Ma-Maison was good! Chillax even more.. & home sweet home (:

Yesterday was ultra NUA day at jess’s place.
:D
Watched her create havoc among her 23049832 pieces of clothings and she made me suffer by making me squeeze in and out of a ridiculously small tube dress (srsly small until…… by the time I got out of it with her help, I was exhausted – YES, THAT BAD)
Sigh. Type emo entry tmrw night. Later you tmrw emo, no good.
But <3 anyways (:

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Lesson of the day:

Don’t play games if you suck at it.

So much to say, but too tired tonight.

I thought I could, I wish I could, but truth is,

I can’t. Not now.

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Had a great day with the girls today at Sentosa despite the bad weather hahaha learnt how to play frizzzzbee worzxz. Thank you, Master WANGXJ, Master JESSHO, Master TMT hahahaha. Jumpshots, pro now!

Tmrw’s gym + Jess’s place.
Wed’s breks/signup for army half w jj and then Escape/day out with lauuu.
Thurs’s porridge buffet lunch with department!
Fri’s sending jess off ): + meeting spens&liping!
Sat&Sun – trgs
Mon’s – teeheehee (:

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Life now is so different. Feels like at a shot, I’ve lost so much. I gave up certain stuff, I made wrong decisions, I failed to keep certain people, and suddenly it’s all bleak.
I feel like suddenly, we are all strangers.
I wish we weren’t, I wish we could be best friends again. I wish I had the rights to ask and to care.
But gone were those days.
What’s the fricking point of getting all emo again, I’m sick of this. One minute I’m okay, I’m happy and alright. The other, I’m blank and sad.
About what, I honestly don’t know. But whatever it is, thank you, those who have been taking the brunt of it all and still standing by me (:

In life, there’s nothing more I can ask for.

No more failed promises. I won’t let myself get blinded again.

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Bi sai shu le, hai ke yi zai chong lai.
Ren yi dan shi qu le, you shi hui hou hui, ye wu fa zai chong lai.
suo yi bu guan tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu ceng jing yong you.
xie xie ni gei wo mei hao de hui yi. wo hui yong yuan ji zai xin li.
hen nan wang ji ni na can lan de xiao rong, na wen rou de biao qing, na shun jian de mei man,
dan shi wo zhi dao, wo hui jian qiang qi lai.
wo hui wei ni er gen yong gan.
ying wei li qi shi ni gei wo de, wo yi ding hui cong xin zan qi lai.
mei you ni, wo ye xu hui jue de xin ku, wo zhi dao ni ye shi.
dan shi xian zai, ni ke yi qu zao ni ying de de xing fu.
xian zai, wo rang ni zi you, rang ni xun zao ke yi rang ni sheng ming jing cai de yi mu.
wo yao rang ni zhi dao, ai, shi neng gou fang shou,
neng gou da fang, kai fang, de rang ni zou.
wo yao zuo na ge ai ni de ren.
Go, before it gets any harder than this.

This week has been a filled one. With fun, smiles and also.. disappointment.

I will skip the disappointing part cos I’ve more or less resigned myself to fate.

Had a crazy London day with ff! Tourists we are, and gluttons too. Hahahaha! <3

Last night was night-cycling to Marina Barrage and Lao Pa Sat with.. jess laupy addie munting peilin weisiang kelvin & weiming (i didn’t miss anyone out hor?). It was tonnes of fun doing crazy stuff with them, like running down the Esplanade bridge on a whim, millions of failed jumpshots, all the laughters and random talks throughout the whole night. Watched people fly kites in the night at the barrage. Fricking pretty, until they got tangled up hahaahha. Finally reached Bedok jetty after supper-ing at lao pa sat and bummed around, crashed for half hour orso.  I’ll admit, the familiarity was all too close for comfort. Passing the Espl bridge reminded me of us. Being at Bedok Jetty reminded me of the sunrise we tried to catch but failed. Everything just reminds me of us. That aside, it was a fun night which ended with training the next morning :| Just got back from that and going out for the alumni/enlistment dinner in less than an hour’s time.

Something’s wrong with my hands. After each paddling sessions, there are always cuts on my thumb or split skin and what not ): Pain.

Had quite a lot on my mind. Wanted to blog about it. Now completely blanked out. Need sleep.

BRB finish post when i get home.