Please wait for her return.

My second-best (ugly version)

Lepak kakis with bridgedaidee x31904283

ungram ):

My very scandalous partner, only available on Weds/Thurs

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK MAK MAK JUNLING <3
ILUBEU SIBEI DIP COS YOU IN A RLS WITH ME <3
QING AI DE! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (tmrw) MAMA!!
<3

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I HAVE TO BLOG BOUT THIS COS I PROMISED JIAJUN HAHAHAHAHAH

TODAY, AFTER LUNCH AFTER YAMI YOGHURT AFTER WE REACHED CATHAY, we sat outside and had a conversation. I DONT CARE IF YOU GUYS DONT FIND IT FUNNY. I LAUGHED THE SHIT OUTTA MYSELF. HAHAHHA

JJ: *going on and on about the rainbow pebbles in his jumbo cup of yami*
me: Eh you sibei childish leh, how old already still so enthu bout that kinda thing???
JJ: I AT HOME MORE CHILDISH LOR (in a fucking indignant tone somemore)
*silence*
JJ: At home, I talk to myself……
me: FUCK YOU THATS NO LONGER CHILDISH, that’s DYSFUNCTIONAL WEIRD STRANGE CREEPY??????

HAHAHAHA LIEW JJ OMFG.

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MEL, you good. NEED HELP THEN COME TALK TO ME.

Mel says (10:13 PM):
bel!
Mel says (10:13 PM):
can you help  me do a survey? very fast one
Mel says (10:13 PM):
and in light of recent events (yes i do read yr blog) it’s quite apt for you

Survey is on Binge Drinking.
THANKS MEL (:

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June<3
Rough road, but I’ve said all in my sms to you already. All of us are gonna be here for you so,
JIAYOU OKAY i love you (:

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I’m supposed to be at training camp, but I’m not.
Ask me why?
I don’t know, so stop stop stop asking okay.

Can’t wait for wed, can see the nanhua people again!
PLUS TANMUNTING!!!!! ;D

&, I need to save.
Spend less, eat less, save more.
How bout, let’s start with 20 bucks a wk?
:\ Sounds impossible already.

I could survive on oxygen and love,
so gimme some love <3

What a short-statement entry this is.
Can’t stand my life, can’t stand it anymore.

K WHTEVER, BYE.

Kakis

long time no see, wxj!!!!!

kinda randomly miss that night ):

Miss all of you girls! ):

Random pictures tonight.

I miss you too, makjunling & gohshurun & jessho

):

AND SPENCER TAN WEETIONG, YOU DIE UNTIL WHERE????????????

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On a side note,  june tay you rock <3
I know you always read but nvr comment but OKAY LA i still <3 you

AND NO, tonight’s not zouk/mambo night.
NEXT WED IS!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA.

Ytd was rowing w lawr, lunch with lawr+chris, then meeting june and jianwei before work, onionfrost with june @ astons, then work w jianwei & this time, second last train home instead of last. LOL.

Today was accompanying mom for lunch, then meeting the chillax kakis (qx addie hs hb) at westmall…..
THEN SOME KARAOKE AT QX’S PLACE.
While they mahjong-ed, I KO-ed on the couch :\
Cabbed back with hs and home sweet home.
What a almost-non-existant day but I enjoyed the few minutes of <3to<3 with qx while hs dozed off before we left (:

& so,
Cowardice is the word for the night.

Don’t jump to any conclusions, please.

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Addie,
You’re one of the rarest and goodest friend any girl can ask for.
I love you.
The other stuff, I’m telling you online now (:
<3 xiexieni.

CHEERS, COS TONIGHT, IS THE NIGHT.
MY NIIIIIIIIIIIGHT ;D

P.S. I can’t wait to mambo nxt wk (JUST COS IT’S GONNA BE HS’S BIRTHDAY SO WE MAMBO OK)
=D

P.P.S. Check out this awesome blog for a completely refreshing shopping experience!
BALLOONS!
http://theairship.tumblr.com/
Who the hell doesn’t like balloons??? (Okay except the popping part)

SO JUST CHECK IT OUT ALREADY, YO!

Awesome Apple People!

The girls I miss

My longtime no see partner/gf

OKAY enough of pictures.

Those were just to take up space LOL.

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Back from work!
With june today for awhile <3
Silly girl bought me panadol for my flu and okay, I took 2. Dint feel any better though ):
Jianwei came in at 8 and did closing w me.
Caught last train back (:

I HATE THIS MY NOSE IS STILL RUNNY LIKE MAD AND WHEN IT ISNT, IT’S BLOCKED LIKE A …. DONNO WAD. FUNNEL? ARGH.
NOT TO MENTION, SNEEZING & COUGHING LIKE F.

I’m soooooo glad auntie sue’s back!
SHE JUST WOKE UP AND ROFL WE TALKED BOUT RANDOM STUFF COS SHES STILL HALF ASLEEP LOL

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I’m really happier these days.
Last week was packed with NTU’s roadshow, which I had a blast at with addie and qx and karloon! Saw many familiar faces too, awesome!
Work’s been good too, people are veryyyy nice and throwing trash is fun at times. Hahaha.
Py & Mak came by again to see me on Sat ;D

ONLY THING THT SUCKED IS,
i think my wisdom tooth is growing out.
DEAD PAINFUL and annoying cos it affects my eating habits ):

OK
I promised to go off at 315am, and i’m about 4 mins past that.
SO I’LL FINISH UP AND GO NOW.

:D

G’night, world (:
May everyday be an awesomeeeeeee day for everyone!
(:

I’m sure gramps will be just fine (:

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Orphan was AWESOME!!! (:
I remember running home late at night just so I can get home faster during 7th month.
Tonight, I could walk back slowly, so yay to that (:

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Yknow, I had this whole bunch of thoughts in my head before I began blogging and now, they’re all jumbled up and all over the place.

Over the past year, lots of stuff had happened. Honestly, I don’t know if the reality of it all has hit me yet, cos I’mstill quite fixated on the past. Oh, it gets easier each day, especially when I’ve things to do, friends to hang out with, other stuff to think about but late nights,

they always kill.

I’ve probably said this a million times but I know I know I’m going to be okay.
I just hate how it makes me feel inadequate all the time, so conscious nowadays, and so judgemental, cynical and critical of humans. I trusted you, I trusted your words and I feel like, I’ve wasted my trust. Unfair to say that, but right back in your face – Trust? You gotta earn it.

Many a times I wonder how real certain people are. I wonder if my judgement’s been right all these times.

Right now, I’m just wondering how much time have I wasted.
How much time have I allowed myself to waste.
How foolish has this all been, not just for me but you and all the other people out there.

WAHFUCK my head is spinning now like f pain.
OK time to say g’ngiht now, abit abrupt but sorleee,

missy need to work tmrw.
BYE WORLD, may the love get to y’all! (;

SO,

after work, we headed down to ecp to “surprise” nicole, who wasn’t very surprised, except by jolene’s appearance.
LOL

Sat around, talked and laughed (okay I was a little stony) and just well, hung out (:
Went to meet jj at carl’s jr after and headed down to padang after slacking for an hour odd.

THE START OF THE RUN WAS SHIOK ONLY.
Until I reached ECP and some fricking chinapok pushed me (OKAY ACCIDENT BUT CAN SAY SORRY RIGHT???) and I fell into a frigging drain and sprained my ankle.

1. VERY MALU.
2. My pri school friend saw HAHAHA
3. BROKE MY MOMENTUM ONLY.

Sorry cannot waste $$ give up take the army car back, so gei kiang also must finish.
Saw quite a lot of people ah! Quite funny. HAHA

JOEL FRICKING FAST. SICK.
After waiting for collin, all of us headed to bk for brunch and headed back after.
TOTALLY KO only.

I highly doubt I’ll ever join the 42km one. 
I’m amazed I managed to complete 21km without having trained in ages BUT I swear I’ve never felt so sian before. Like every km takes AGES to complete and after completing ONE KM, you realize you still have like, 20?????
Totally wtf. Hahahaha

But it is an experience! (:

Just don’t do it without sufficient sleep/after work/alongside a china woman.
Pardon the angst.

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Anyways I’m watching some sports thing on channel5, and they are showing the walking race and it’s held at Berlin! At the Reichstag. No wonder I was watching and finding the place damn familiar.

OKAY I’m off to bed, like the literal bed, not on the couch anymore.

Selling apple laptops at NTU this entire wk, wish me luckkkkkkkkkkkk ;D

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One thing you should know:

This is my life. You wanna know something, come straight to me. Don’t go AROUND me.
Don’t give me the all-innocent shit and then act like you are when you really aren’t.
I’m very very very sick and tired of being judged (WHO ISN’T??) and say, if you’re a supposedly good friend, I guess I can understand. Sometimes people judge because they care. BUT NO, you are not a close/good friend so I don’t know who you are to judge me when you don’t even come close to being concerned.

okay to be continued.

hate to use this laptop to blog leh, format weird only.

kbye, world (:
Love y’all!

Last night was the bomb.

For the first time in my entire life, I let myself get so down and out that at the end of it, I can’t even remember a single shit.

Thank you qx addie hs hb <3
k thank you hs the most cos they all told me you did the most plus i puked on your jeans :\
Thank you papa & mama <3
Thank you makmak <3
SORRY MATT DINT MANAGE TO FIND YOU IN THE END LOLOLOLOL

“Nobody is worth so much of your tears.”

My dad hugged me and told me it’s gonna be just fine.
My mom took a day’s leave to accompany me today. Had seoul & shopped around – just us (:

Suddenly, I feel like everything’s really going to be okay. It’s time to lift my head up once more & stop living in the past.

SO YAY AND BYE TO LAST NIGHT AND HELLO BEL (:

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Can’t wait to eat tauhueyyyy and fish soup later!
=D

LOVE Y’ALL!

Meet my awesome papa

My very very awesome thumbsup papa cooked shrimp wanton soup for me and left a sweet note on the container & I had it after waking up from a horrid headache-y night.
Mak & I both didn’t manage to wake up and gym and swim and blah but there’s always tomorrow (:

Worked with june on Monday and it was funnn (:
So work was fine ytd, with yijun lolol.
After that was Astons with ttl qx and hs then timbre substation and hb joined us.
I very lazy to type sentences so I’m like joining eveything tgd in one long long one with a lot of “AND”s hahahaha

UP in 2 hours time! =D

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Every night before I sleep, I look at the happy collage still sitting on my stereo.
“Throw it away, store it somewhere, anywhere you can’t see it, do what it takes for you to not have to see it and remember you were once happy”
What took away all the simplicity and happiness from relationships?

Awesome, I fell asleep blogging/msn.

HEADING OUT NOW, YO (:

Possible, no?

Is it possible to be THIS happy every single day?
I WISH.

Today was spent collecting medicine at SGH. Thank you hb for accompanying me! (:
Then down to Kembagan to pass gramps the med and see gramma and talk to jeremy for a bit before leaving (& getting pissed off by my fucked up uncle, for the matter of fact @($#)*@#$@)

To taka’s Seoul Garden for ladies’ night with laupy & mak mak!
<3 so funny, the girls. lub them so dip dip dip dip!

& I’m so glad I met up with shu ytd too -  for a taitai lunch and chillax afternoon before heading for trg lol

Jess babeeeeee, missing you lehzx ):

June<3, cheerup and rmbr, believe and you will (:

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OKAY im blogging tonight only to entertain some bored people tonight.
ADDIECHEN LIOWQX KIONGHB

I actually have work at 1030am tomorrow,  and am gonna open store so please,

BLESS ME (I need it really badly)

wooooooooooo

so happy leh we all.

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It’s nearing 3am, and I’m wishing so hard tonight that I can stop thinking of you.
Visions, images, sounds and memories -  I wish you’d all go away tonight, just for one night.

I’m getting numbed by it all.

G’night, y’all.

It can’t possibly get any harder than this.