How is it possible that just 4 years ago, I was able to use the term forever……… and now, I find it a total piece of bullshit. The ironies in life.
It’s so sad to know that it’s actually possible to lose faith in love, somehow or another.. even if not entirely. It’s sad to start believing that you’ll be okay alone, or in fact, you might be better off alone. It’s sad to be the one that’s left behind all the time, the one scooping up all the left over memories so that you dont forget.. when others have moved far ahead long ago. You know how sometimes you think youve moved on.. but a few years down the road, you still look back and wonder? Yeah technically youve moved on but it still kills when you think back.
Should I stay on after this year ends? Recurring question every day every night. Haunting my every waking moment.
Adelaide was a place I ran away to. Now it’s become the place that’s filled me with so much hated memories. Yet a part of me still feels like this could be home for a little while longer.
‘It was not too long ago that I was writing a note to say good bye, but now it’s time to fly home again’ – Keith’s song really strikes a lot of chords in my humming brain.
I feel like a hummingbird. Thoughts humming nonstoppppppppp.
‘& the days just fly away before i realise..’
I need to know that I’m not alone, yet at the same time I need to be alone.
why am i such a complicated being for fuck sake?!
i’d say, stay there for a lil while longer. as much as i want you back in sg to drink teh peng with me <3
i’d welcome u with open arms =)