I’m back after a 2 year long hiatus.
I don’t know if it’s for good or it’s only for this one post.. but in any case, hello.
I just wanted to write about this “friend” I’ve had for a long time before realizing what a douche he is. This happened 5 years ago, but somehow, it still feels like yesterday.
A friend, will never take advantage of you, especially not when you’re at your weakest, lowest, and most helpless point in time.
A friend, will never use your friendship against you.
A friend, will never use that ability to threaten you into doing things that were against your will.
A friend, will never shatter your heart the way he did to mine.
A friend, will never care on the pretext of wanting something else, something more.
A friend, will and should never be someone like you.
Is it that I trusted too easily?
Or I really believed in you then, so much such that I invited a luring wolf into my life?
In any case, you wanted my forgiveness 5 years ago. Here you go, I forgive you.
But don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate you any less. I’m not any less upset or angry despite the 5 years that have passed. It feels as raw and fresh today as it did 5 years ago. I hope your conscience eats you up every day in your life, and I hope it slowly rots away, and at the same time, rot your entire life away. I cannot pretend to not hate you and to forget whatever that had happened, but I can grant you your wish of being forgiven, if that will make you sleep better at night.
So there, I forgive you, asshole.